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The night they took down Beasttube [Dec. 9th, 2007|01:53 am]
Chip Tankgirl
[music |Sonic Youth - Goo, Deee-Lite - World Clique]

Oh man, today was kind of a crappy one.

I get up at around 11 to answer a call from B. B is in the D family. The Ds are friends of my family, going back to when my father and B went to elementary school together. Such is life in Etna. I have known the D family since I was about 8, and I have never felt very comfortable around them. This is especially true now, because now that the D kids and I are all grown up, our social and political disagreements have come into full form. Only they don't know that, and I am very literally terrified at the prospect of them finding out. Literally, I lie to them whenever I see them (which I try to keep to a minimum), because I don't even want to think about what would happen if they discovered I'm a vegan, straight-edge, queer positive, politically correct, anarchist, etc. The whole D family came into town to watch their son and daughter (both Chico State students) sing in the choir.It's the next morning since, and they want to go out to breakfast. They always go to the Italian Cottage, which has nothing vegan on the menu.I'm sacrificing my diet out of fear of being discovered by conservative friends of the family. This is a great way to start a day.

I get pancakes, which are the most vegan thing on the menu. They are pancakes, however, so I feel pretty good and sick.

I go back to Brannon and Yun Jin's place, where I spent the night last night. Brannon and I go to the comic book store where I spend way more money that I should have. I go home, use my last bit of toilet paper to finish off a big pancake poo, and take a nap.

When I wake up, I go to run some errands, which take way less time than I anticipate, and leave me quite glad I brought something to read while waiting to go see Savage in Limbo, a play put on by some students that have started their own makeshift theater company.

You know what? Fuck it. I'm down with the theater dorks. They are a far cry from the coolest kids on the block, but at least they are in some way getting involved in something creative and constructive. Most Chico State students look at their stay here as a four to seven year vacation in a place that has no sort of culture that they need to be involved in. There's so much to Chico outside the party culture and the bar culture, but since it's not right under your nose like it is in Walnut Creek or wherever these shitbrick students come from, they tend to ignore it. The theater dorks aren't a whole lot better, but they are at least doing the theater run because it's something they're genuinely interested in being involved in on a communal level. You don't get that from many Chico kids.

So I call Brannon and coax him into coming to the show as well. I kind of liked it. He didn't. I think my standards are set lower than his.

We walk around downtown. Kick it at the Naked Lounge. Talk about getting food. We go to his car. Talk about getting food. Cruz around and decide to grab a pizza from Monstro's. There's a show at Monstro's, and I don't want to hang out with the pirate punx crew, so we go to his house. There he almost falls asleep. We talk about ordering a pizza from Woodstock's. We talk about ordering a pizza to pick up from Monstro's. Brannon worked at a pizza joint for a while, and he claims pizza joints really dislike complicated phone orders.Since that's what we're getting (he wants half with cheese, I want have vegan) we decide to go to Monstro's in person. I try one last attempt to go to Woodstock's instead, but Brannon wants to get more pizza for less, which would mean Monstro's. We spend close to an hour (or what seems like it) hanging out with all the pirate punx waiting for them to cook the damn pizza. I can't stand that whole scene. Last night, Jason and I were shooting footage for the Party CD release show on Sunday (which is today) and we had to shoot some at the Crux, which made us have to put up with the same bunch of kids at the erotic art show. I spent way more time this weekend than I wanted to, trying to avoid conversations with a bunch of by-the-book lameos standing around congratulating each other on how punk they are. Brannon made the comparison that the Erotic Art Show is for the Women's Center crew what Halloween is for the rest of Chico: free range to wear something you wouldn't be caught dead in on another night. And I mean, you can wear whatever you want, I don't care. However, you can't put on a teddy for one night and expect me to be proud of you. I don't think you're doing anything inspiring or progressive or original. Your body doesn't interest me and neither does your art. Why don't you quit trying so goddamned hard and just say what's really on your mind, y'know?

And to try and bring it back to the show at Monstro's, you're not better than anyone else because you joined some special punk fraternity and now you're part of the show booking process at a pizza joint. I lived in a show house for two years, and for the most part did what I could to support the scene, but I tried my best not to get a big head about it. So you care about the scene in Chico and you make shows happen. Great, but drop the unwarranted sense of self importance and admit that living vicariously through your circle of friends is a fucking pathetic thing to do.Especially since in the real world no one gives a shit if you kick it with Sean the Pawn or whoever.

Also, I ran into Spencer at the show,and it was nothing if not awkward.

So we finally get our pizza, and I take it home and take a large slice and put it onto a plate. In the terribly complex process of simultaneously balancing a plate with pizza on it and sitting down, I dump the pizza face down onto my lap. The slice then proceeds to slide off my lap, and face down onto the floor. And that's when I realize that today was kind of crappy.

Also, I pooped again during the coarse of writing this, and midway remembered I was out of toilet paper, and I had to dig a used napkin out of the trash to wipe my butt.
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[User Picture]From: bradsaw
2007-12-09 11:01 am (UTC)
Sweet, so tell me how you really feel about Chico. . .


And; so a couple of years ago I wore a dress to an Erotic Art show and all of a sudden a bunch of women who thought I was a jerk were buddies with me and a woman that I went to high school with who probably thought that I was knuckle-dragging jackass the whole time I knew her, despite the incredibly powerfull crush I had on her, got her first dose of Brad in about 8 years and figured that I wasn't that bad of a guy after all. So I'm just saying that I support the Erotic Art Show's policy of being a place where people can dress up a little outlandishly.
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[User Picture]From: modernmanifesto
2007-12-09 07:10 pm (UTC)

hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

This is why I don't leave my house. It seems like there's always some dress code for the night and I'm just wearing the cardigan I've been wearing for the last week and I feel all weird about it. Or I try to dress up and then feel even more awkward because even in my trying I fail to be as stylishly eccentric as everyone else.
This might be a more pathetic comment than I intended, I've been listening to The Weakerthans too much.
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[User Picture]From: chiptankgirl
2007-12-09 08:30 pm (UTC)

Re: hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

I know about 47 Emilies. Which one are you?
-chip
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[User Picture]From: modernmanifesto
2007-12-09 08:32 pm (UTC)

Re: hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

47? that seems like an overstatement.
I'm bibliophile
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[User Picture]From: chiptankgirl
2007-12-09 08:36 pm (UTC)

Re: hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

I would be too if I knew how to read.
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[User Picture]From: modernmanifesto
2007-12-10 12:11 am (UTC)

Re: hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

aren't you funny
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[User Picture]From: bradsaw
2007-12-10 09:28 am (UTC)

Re: hi chip, this is Emilie, hope you don't mind that I added you.

not really.
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-12-19 04:55 pm (UTC)

bummer

sorry to hear you feel that way Chip. I had a good time talking to you and Brannon that night. I guess that was a mistake. I leave you alone from now on.
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-12-20 05:18 am (UTC)

Re: bummer

I don't know who you are or when you talked to me, but let me just say that I wasn't attacking the Women's Center or its members, I was just making the observation that there were large quantities of women wearing little clothing with a bunch of pervy dudes around, and it looked frighteningly similar to situations that arise on halloween and other times, which are participated in by people who are arguably less socially conscious than the Women's Center crowd, and whose behavior tends to be looked down upon by the Women's Center crowd. Now there is nothing wrong with wearing little clothing, there's nothing wrong with being naked, but I just find it interesting that some events are seen as justifiable, while others are vilified. Although I am fully aware that there are other issues involved which distinguish the two in terms of the political and social climate of the feminists/activists/pseudoactivists, and lack thereof among the frats and sororities and typical downtown partiers. Women are surely at much less risk of being assaulted or raped at the EAS in comparison to halloween or downtown. I'm also pretty sure I was misquoted, I don't recall making it a comparison that was personalized toward the Women's Center and it's members since there were countless people there, and I was generally just referring to the like-minded, (somewhat)socially conscious people who I saw there who I've seen or could imagine talking shit about scantily clad women who are part of a different social scene.
-Brannon
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From: (Anonymous)
2007-12-19 10:00 pm (UTC)

i thought i liked you

why would you say shit about the womens center? We have to defend ourselves a lot, but the attacks are usually from asshole conservatives, not friends. I didn't realize you were so pretentious.The erotic art show is just a big party, and if you're not down then don't come. But don't dis us for enjoying a little dress-up and dancing. I've seen your hairy ass in a nurses outfit, Chip, so shut the hell up.
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From: (Anonymous)
2008-01-21 12:23 pm (UTC)

Re: i thought i liked you

oh my fucking god.
after my ear fell off from all the gossip about this blog, i had to check it out so here are my thoughts:

why would anybody say shit about the women's center, are you SERIOUS?????
personally and very GENERALLY, i support the women's center, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't annoy the crap out of me because of certain things. . . like members getting defensive because somebody throws some critcism their way. NOTE TO THE WOMEN'S CENTER: if you call criticism and opinions from your friends "attacks" and then say things like "i thought i liked you", then FUCK YOU IN YOUR FUCKING FACE because you'd be pretty lame and tyrannical without honesty from people who care about what you do.
i am a feminist woman and i think that the erotic art show is insufferable and pointless for very specific reasons. there, i said it. are you going to quit talking to me now? let me know if my different opinions are getting in the way because diversity in perspective is such a pain in the ass, isn't it?

if you are seriously withdrawing your friendship from somebody for disagreeing or criticizing your organization, then maybe your ex-friend is better off because it's probably YOU that sucks in the relationship.

also, regarding having adverse opinions about the pyrate punx- basically the same point. obviously, some of your friends who are not pyrate punx think that there are positive sides to your work. however, sometimes pyrate punx are annoying a fuck- why can't you just accept that and move on?? it's ok for people to not like you all the time while simultaneously valuing what you do.

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From: (Anonymous)
2008-01-21 12:27 pm (UTC)

Re: i thought i liked you

btw- this is YJC, i am owning what i say, and i posted the above reply.
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[User Picture]From: chiptankgirl
2008-01-21 12:44 pm (UTC)

Re: i thought i liked you

Thank you so much for that.
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